- I’m needy.
I try to be independent and such but it’s easy to become dependent on someone to make you feel better. Someone to say “you’re great” even when you don’t feel great. Someone to hold you when you feel all alone. It’s easy to fall into a dependent role. I get there easy with people. I know I do it, and I can hardly stand it.
- I’m bi polar.
Okay so not really (at least not diagnosed) but I get in these mood swings. This goes along with being needy. I can be super happy on minute…then I start feeling loney and get super depresed, iand I start feeling alone. I start questioning why I’m alone and I start to wonder if you notice me.
-I do things for attention.
If I feel like I’m alone and if I feel depressed or unwanted or unloved I do things like write depressing shit to get your attention. Nothing in specific but everything in general.
- I get paranoid easily.
If you go a while wihtout responding to my text I get anxious. I can hardly breathe. I turn my phone off and back on to make sure it wasn’t being stupid and not showing me the sent texts. I text myself to make sure that my text still works. I call you and hang up before it rings in the hopes that you might see and call back. I open a text adressed to you. Just a Blank message I hope to send just so that you can get it and then wonder what I was going to say. Just to get you thinking about me.
These are just a few reasons why you might want to get away from me. These are just a few of the ways you make me crazy(er). This is how I know I love you. Sometimes I think you hurt me more than you help, not in a bad way…just that sometimes I think that the longer I’m with you the harder it’ll be for me to let go. The harder you’ll make to for me to get fixed. Although with you I don’t feel that broken. <3.
